March 30, 2010

I forgot about you the moment I got on that plane.

As dictated by Faranza Syns

Yesterday was a horror-cum-awesome string of events that still make me laugh, cringe, shake my head in baffled wonderment, and smile idiotically smile with self-deprecation.

It began with 2 o'clock in the morning when I went to bed. Which would explain why I -- stupidly unwisely -- fell asleep in my instructor's car on the way to the 6-hour driving workshop.

A silly mistake that will cost me a whole life of disturbed peace.

Abg Nizam: Kau ni, kerja tidur aje. Semalam aku call kau, kau buat apa?
Me: ... Tidur.
Abg Nizam: HA. Tadi masa kau tidur dalam kereta tu, takut Abg Nizam nak gerakkan gear - ya lah kan, takut nanti terjaga, siapalah nak buatkan susu?


Har-har. Oh very funny. I admit, my knee was probably wedged against the gear-stick, but it's not my fault I sleep wantonly. He put on soft rock on the radio! How was I supposed to hold on to my sanity and maintain consciousness at the same time! Nobody has that much willpower to overcome something I would like to call aggressive-full-throttle provocation. And what with the air-conditioner on at full blast - how could I ever NOT fall asleep?

Abg Nizam: Masa kau balik dengan Abg Man tu, kau tidur juga ke?
Me: Tidur.
Abg Nizam: KAU TIDUR? Eh, kepala kau tak terlentok kat bahu dia ke?
Me: Mana ada! Masa tidur tu, saya pusing ke kiri lah.
Abg Nizam: Itu namanya membelakangi guru!
Me: =_=''


Must say, he craps the most amongst us all. Lyn and Mumtaz, the two girls who went to the place with me were victims of his teasings as well, but nobody gets it more than me.

Me: Kenapa saya? Kenapa saya sahaja yang jadi mangsa? *drammatically, puts hands against heart.*
Abg Nizam: *grins wolfishly*


My sleeping in the car became an upstanding joke amongst the four of us there. More like them ganging up against me.

Right before we were going to leave (Lyn, Mumtaz and I were rather restless for having to spend an extra three hours going around doing nothing, waiting for 4.30 p.m. to roll around), we all had to scan our thumbs for prints so that we could get our L as soon as possible. Mumtaz grabbed a form since she wanted to change the address that would be on her L license because the one on her IC was her old house. After we were done, Abg Nizam made us wait for him by the car. Mumtaz brought her form along. Me and Lyn bought our drinks then three of us waited by the car, me drinking (I can barely type 'sucking my tea through a straw') my tea as I played around with the kittens there.

Abang Nizam came by.

Mumtaz: Borang ni nak isi bila?
Abg Nizam: *deadpan* ...Sekarang la. Kau nak isi bila lagi?
Mumtaz: La! Kenapa tak bagitau awal-awal?
Abg Nizam: Eh, budak ni. Aku kasi satu kang, patah hidung.


So Mumtaz began filling up the form. She has some trouble with the Bandar and Negeri section. She wrote Kuala Lumpur for Bandar and guess what she wrote for Negeri?

Malaysia.

When I saw the form, I stared at it with wide eyes, my drinking straw between my lips.

Abg Nizam: Ish, kau ni, Mumtaz! Tengok Farhana tu. Sengsara dia - dia nak tidur!
Me: ... *deadpan*
Abg Nizam: Sabar eh, Farhana. Kejap aje lagi. Tak pe, tak pe, masuk kereta dulu. Nanti Abg Nizam bukakan air-cond.
Me: =_=''


Meanie.

But despite it all, he's pretty fun to be around. He likes photography. We spent the whole time going back with him pointing out stuff that I should take pictures of on the highway with me happily snapping away.










The coup de grace would be a picture of Lyn and Mumtaz at the back seat sleeping (they forced me to sit in front). Serves them right. Hah!





Hohohoho.
Cruel me.


It was a joint effort between me and Abg Nizam. I Bluetoothed the picture to him.

They'd probably kill me, but so what?




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I went out with Amanda the other day. It was a four-hour, strenuous, back-breaking hike around the most trecherous, dangerous areas of all Malaysia.

Yeah, we went to Times Square and Sungei Wang.




Amanda: This proves that male mannequins are anatomically correct - it's just small, that's all.






It was the first thing that caught my eye. It fit, so I bought it. With much persuasion from Amanda. Gad, it was Kitschen top, and it was pricey!

I'm gonna have to cut on ... everything. Oh, the agony.


Mama: Oh, that's nice. How much was it?

Me: Oh, 30 plus.


Hell yeah, it's above thirty. I just omitted the fact that the difference between the price of the top and RM 30 is huge.


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I never knew Italian sounds so awesome.

Here's to my new friend - Fra from Italy. Hee. Hugs and kisses!

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March 27, 2010

Yatta!

As dictated by Faranza Syns




It says it all.

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If I made the headlines tomorrow, no one would notice.

As dictated by Faranza Syns


IMVU's back, baybe.



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March 23, 2010

When the Autumn Leaves Blush - Part V

As dictated by Faranza Syns

When The Autumn Leaves Blush
Faranza Syns


Tadaa! It's the time you've waited for! Chapter 4 is (finally, after many broken promises) out! I've made a few changes to the storyline, so to those of you whom I've leaked the storyline to before I went to NS, sorry. I changed it. Hope it's not too bad. By the by, if there are any typos, please ignore. I'll get back to it after my online test on Saturday. This time, it's for Hariz (who has helped me a lot on shaving), Amanda, Kye Li, Alia Ilani, my Dharrling, Afzy and also my ghost readers. Drop a comment, will you? I need feedback. ;D

Sleeping positions in this post was (I'm proud to say) stolen from Ju Yee's album of Geo Cosmo
Wiras sleeping in their dorm. Call it a breach of privacy, but it was funny. Now, on with the show!



Chapter 4



Sean groaned in muffled agony as his muscles protested violently against his sudden move to sit up. Ignoring the tearing pain in his limbs, Sean pushed himself up on suffering arms, anchoring his weight as best as he could. Looking to his left, and then his right, Sean frowned in puzzlement.

Everyone was in bed.

Well, that was the normal part of it. The odd part was... no one was snoring. Shaking his head, Sean sighed.

Blessed peace.

Taking a deep, bracing breath, he grimaced as he swung his legs over the side of the bed, and let his feet touch the cold, tiled floor. He forced himself onto his tingling toes - standing straight and tall, he stretched his sore muscles, trying to wring the stiffness from his shoulders, arms, legs and back.

Holy hell. It never got easier. With a grim smile, he thought of how hopeful he'd been for the physical torture to let up. He had always thought that one day he would be at the top of his game, and no amount of violent physical grilling he received would ever wind him even a little.

Boy, was he wrong.

Sean took a look at the plastic clock that hung on the wall and scanned his dorm room again. All of his roommates were fast asleep. One was - they would kill him if they knew he thought of this word and them in the same sentence - adorably curled into a ball, one hand with curled fingers placed near his cheek, like a - again, they would kill him if they knew he'd used this word - baby. One looked like he was performing the bicycle kick in his sleep, live, frozen mid-kick on the bed. Another had his legs splayed wide apart, facing the ceiling with something that looked suspiciously like a bunch of underwear crumpled together and hugged tight against a strong, muscled chest.

Should he take a picture of this very interesting situation? An evil grin spread over Sean's face. Most of the time, they all leapt out of bed at the same moment having all had nearly the same programming for their internal clocks. But today was a bit different for Sean - and hell, he had no idea why.

With that thought he shrugged and struggled to move towards the clothes rack where towels had been hung haphazardly. He had been in this academy for a year now. And god help him, it was not the same as before. Not the same as the horror many years ago. Thinking back to the years of bitterness, hate and sheer helplessness made his shoulders tense. His hand reached down to touch the jagged scar on his thigh, the glower on his chiseled face intense and burning. Inhaling deeply, he opened the door to the shower stall, trying to ease the knot in his chest as he exhaled.

Things were different. He'd faced his fears, and now he would become the victor of the war waged within himself.

He stepped into the shower stall and locked the door. As the chilly spray of water hit his face, he gasped and cursed. Maybe he should not have bathed at such an unholy hour of the morning. If nothing interesting happened soon, he swore he'd take a picture of those guys in their undies and post it up somewhere embarrassing.






Dirt and sand stirred above the ground as boot-clad feet moved agilely, supporting a lithe female body as it jumped from a big, noisy truck. "Thank you, sir!" the female called out above the agitated whirring of the truck. Fixing the position of her rucksack strap on her shoulder with one hand, she waved vigorously with the other.

The driver of the truck was less jovial in his goodbyes. "You..." he pointed a finger at her. "You're a lady," he reminded her gravely. "So you watch out, you hear?"

Laughing, the girl waved away the trucker's worries. "I will." She smiled affectionately up at the man who had been her companion for more than a few nights. "You take care too, y'hear?" she piped.

The elder man finally broke into a smile, and tipped the bill of his cap at her. "Bye," he waved.

And as the truck roared away, the brave, devil-may-care smile on the girl's lips slipped away and disappeared. Tense fingers gripped the shoulder strap of her rucksack as she turned to survey her surroundings. Where the hell was she?

There really was not much around her. There were trees and the bushes with flowers abloom, but there was definitely no traffic, no public phones and the only building around the area was a military school. Where was she?

Nowhere.

Eyes widening at the thought, she stood still to absorb it all. Nowhere. She was in the middle of nowhere. She waited for the feel of pure joy and release to enfold her being - waiting for a sense of relief and acceptance to cloak the increasing sadness that had quietly become a staid compadre of hers as the months passed.

She looked up to the sky, trying to look beyond the mosaic of leaves above her towards the limitless stretch of pre-dawn grey. It was not supposed to turn out this way - things were supposed to be better. Was a year not long enough?

Apparently not.

Anger twisted its tawny fingernails deeper into her soul, ravaging the already torn part of her further. Seething, she tried to push it away, and turned on her heels, taking in fully what was around her, quickly calculating her chances of survival - the mean temperature, the colour of the sky, humidity of the wind.

Thunder rumbled as stormy clouds rolled and roiled above her head. Dammit. She had not noticed the clouds when she'd stopped her beloved trucker and said she would get off there - saying she had a brother to visit at the military school.

A brother to visit at the military school.

Her eyes swiveled towards the low gates of the brick-and-stone building. An impatient clap of thunder made her look up in panic at the skies. Days where she had fallen sick from being so wet, dirty and muddy had taken their toll on her mental endurance of this condition. If there was one thing she used to love but had grown to hate, it was getting wet.

No way was she going to endure being so sick she'd spew her guts out.

There was no other way around it - the only true shelter she had against the rain was the military school.

She squared her shoulders and tipped her chin up. She was prepared for stealthy infiltration.








Sean brushed his hands back and forth over the top of his head and surveyed his image in the mirror. Frowning, he ran his hand over his jaw and neck, feeling the fine bristles prickling his fingers. Shaving time. He turned the tap and let warm water gush out of the spout. He patted the water onto his face, warming his face up, readying the skin for a good bout of shaving.

As he lathered shaving cream on his face, he heard a suspiciously muffled thump - like a sound... that came from outside-

Acting on barely leashed instincts, he swung around in a powerful arc and slid open the window near his sink. His eyes focused and alert, he scanned the perimeters for any freshman stupid enough to go moonlighting at three o'clock in the morning - way past curfew hours. The earliest anyone could roam the grounds would be around five in the morning, even for a senior maven. Sean pursed his lips at that. Senior Mavens were the hardest to rein in these days - knowing that they were about to graduate seemed to make them think that they could step all over their platoon leaders. Senior Heroes were a lot more lucid as they have not yet specialised in any field - in other words, they were not popular for any sort of achievement in school; academically or athletically. It was as if being a Senior Maven made them think they actually had a rank in the school's hierarchy.

They were dead wrong.

Still wary, pulling away from the window was hard for Sean. As the Senior Under Officer of the Bravo Company, the last news he wanted to hear from any of his Junior Under Officers was that one of their company had been caught being an ass - not now. Not when they were so close to graduation and the final 'Reckoning' Awards ceremony.

From the corner of his eyes, he kept a clear view of the window although at his angle, he would not be able to see what was happening below. Living on the second floor had its perks - but sometimes he wished they had a bottom dorm. Him and the other SUOs.

Picking up his razor, he began shaving, forcing himself to look away from the window to focus on the task at hand. Being paranoid helped nobody shave, that was for sure. As he cleared away the whiskers on his face, he began shaving the underside of his chin.

A loud bang and the eerie sound of something sliding against wet glass jarred the steady movements of his hand and it resulted in a quick cut to the skin of his jawbone. He cursed and tossed the razor into the sink, running to the window. If he did not see anything again, just like before, there must really be something wrong with his brain.

And there, on the ground directly beneath the window, he saw a body writhing in pain, clutching an arm. The body looked fully clothed, but the clothes looked drab and old - the person also had something of a shaggy, long-haired cut.

Sean groaned. Not another smart-ass freshman thinking he could become Superman for the night and leave campus by power jumping off the ledge dressed as a homeless.

He grabbed a piece of paper tissue and pressed it against his bleeding skin. He rushed to his bed and put on a sweater and a pair of pants. Fuming at the fact that he - once again - had to save the ass of an ungrateful newbie, Sean raced down the stairs and out into the open. Cold droplets of rain touched his skin and he sighed at his luck. No use whining about it now. The poor kid probably broke his arm from the fall.

The lump near the dorms had stopped writhing when Sean approached it, but he could clearly see how raggedly the kid was breathing - possibly trying to keep in the cries of pain. The kid lay reposed on grass, as if accepting the defeat that had been dished out to him. Thank god. Sean was not prepared to accept the news that he might have to chase the newbie down at three in the morning.

He raised his hand to shield his face as he felt - and heard - the rain turn slightly fierce. What amazed him was that the body on the ground tensed - then began shifting at a very high speed. Hands were brushing away dirt and what puzzlingly seemed like rain-water from body, face, arms and legs. It almost seemed like the kid was scared of rain-water - well, he sounded like he was.

But that sound... that squeaky sound of panic... was it not a bit too high for a male? Sean squinted, then moved closer, until he was just a few inches from the figure.

And he saw the face.

"What the hell," he breathed. What he saw was... Unable to believe his eyes, he crouched in front of the person - no longer sure what to call it - and grabbed the person's shoulders in a vise-like grip. He squeezed hard until the person stopped squirming, and he got a good gander at the person's features. "Holy mother..."

The person shook in his grip, eyes glassy and face streaked with debris and water - a face that was decidedly feminine.

Sean inhaled sharply. The body continued to shake, but the eyes focused on Sean's face, wide and wary.

"Who are you?"








Danielle could feel the cold envelope her from all sides, reaching deep into her bones, running its long, cold, prickly fingers along every vein, injecting a system-jarring chill into her bloodstream. The droplets of rain that hit her face felt like they were hails of ice, piercing her skin, further chilling her. They suffocated her - made her feel like she was being hit with the full-force of a thunderstorm.

"Dee... dee," gritted out between chattering teeth.

"Deedee? Deedee, what are you doing around here?"

She gripped the sweater of the guy who was currently holding her upright. She knew it was his strength she was depending on because somehow the rain had sapped her of hers. "Please," she begged in short, choppy breaths. "Get me out of this rain."

The guy looked up at the clouds above them. "It's just a little rain - it won't be too heavy yet. Listen, Deedee, I need you to tell me--"

A loud crash of thunder shook her insides. She whimpered as she felt her hands begin to freeze up. She moved closer to the guy, practically throwing herself into his arms. What little warmth he had, she absorbed in an almost greedy manner. Her hands were shaking, her body felt awfully cold... and her head... felt more than a little light...

"Deedee? God, you can't do this to me."

Danielle did not give a damn. In fact, she did not think she could even speak - her tongue felt too weak. It was happening again. In a few seconds, her body would be burning up - and then the next thing that would happen is her splayed across the floor as an aftermath of a violent bout of vomiting.

"Holy crap," the guy cursed.

"Please," Danielle breathed out on an agonised sob.

The last thing she could register in her memory was the feel of a pair of arms gathering her against a warm chest. She leaned against the chest - relief washed over her in tender waves - and then, everything else blanked out. Blessedly.







Drake frowned as the fog of sleep in his head thinned out and consciousness began poking at his brain. He groaned, then scratched his chest - only to be hampered by a thin layer of underwear that covered that area. His frown intensified when he saw the bundle of underwear on his chest. Must have slept without putting them away.

Holy damn, did anyone see --

Quick as a flash, he spun and crouched on his bed, scattering his underwear as he scanned the room. Right. Robin was in bed, Clark was in bed, and Sean was in bed too. Drake let out a quick huff of air in relief. He gave himself a self-deprecating chuckle, then began collecting his underwear. Then, from the corner of his eyes, he caught sight of something that made his blood freeze.

Was that Sean sitting at the study table? So... who was the one on the bed?

"Fuck, I'm seeing double." Drake pressed the heel of his hands against his closed eyes, really thinking he was insane. "It's a dream, I'm sure."

"You're talking to yourself, dude."

"You think?" Drake asked heatedly, removing his hands from his eyes. "I'm seeing two of you, you prick! Of course I'd be talking to myself!" he pointed vehemently at Sean's bed.

"Wow," Sean said. "I thought you were the brains amongst the SUOs. That's not me on the bed."

"How can it not be - Who is it, then?"

As a look of gravity shadowed Sean's face, Drake grew alarmed. "See for yourself."

Clad only in boxers, Drake bounced off his bed, then approached Sean's bed. He leaned over the bed and stared. And stared. And stared.

Clearly unnerved by Drake's unmoving stupor, Sean swiveled his chair around and faced him. "So?" he asked impatiently.

Drake leaned back, a thoughtful look on his face. "She's pretty."

"What?" Sean burst.

The two boys in bed murmured in protest and shifted, pulling covers and pillows over their heads.

"Well," Drake said matter-of-factly, "underneath that dirt she is pretty."

Sean tensed. "She's a girl."

"Obviously." Drake looked at him like he was an idiot. "We haven't been secluded from them that long, you know."

Coiled like a tight spring, Sean sprung up off his chair and began pacing. "Let me see if I get you straight. There's a girl in the SUOs dorm, where no females should venture, and all you can say is she's pretty?"

"Where'd you find her?"

"She tried to climb up the building into one of the rooms is my guess. She fell. I think she sprained her wrist."

Drake moved to other side of the bed to see the girl's hand in an ice-compression. "We should wake Robin up - he's a medic maven."

"No, don't wake him up!" Sean stilled Drake's move. "He'd freak and tell everyone a girl came to the dorm -"

"Bull," Drake moved, fluidly avoiding Sean's big frame, and moving towards one of the boys. He grabbed Sean's towel and whipped it across Robin's bottom.

"I'm up," Robin shot up in bed drowsily. "I swear I am. Yes, I'll do the laundry. Yes, the grass, too..." Robin leaned to his side, then slowly, began to move into the sleeping position again until Drake smacked him behind the head.

"Up, Robin."

Robin cursed, then got off his bed. "Geez. Whiner."

"There's a girl here."

"What?" and Robin's eyes seemed to immediately latch onto the girl on the bed.

It always amazed Drake and the others how Robin could easily shift gears from Sleep to Battle in just a split second. It was like he never actually went to sleep at all. He moved to the side where the girl's hand was in a compression. "Good job, guys. Now we just need to get her up and--"

"She has fever," Sean put in.

Drake's eyebrows rose. "She has a fever and she climbed up our building, fell, sprained her wrist--"

"She just got the fever." Sean looked uncertainly at the girl. "It was raining and all," he muttered.

"Was it that heavy?" Robin asked as he rummaged through the opened first aid kit.

"Not really. That's why I don't understand why she got the fever in the first place." Sean paused, crossing his arm over his chest. "It was like... she was scared of the rain."

The boys were silent as Robin moved around and pressed a wet cloth to the girl's forehead. He took another cloth and wiped away the dirt on the girl's face. "Who's she, by the way?"

Sean raised both hands. "I have no idea. I don't know her."

"That's mean of you."

All three pairs of eyes swiveled towards the girl currently lying down on the bed. Her eyes were glassy, but they were open and aware. Robin moved to sit on the side of the bed, one leg folded and placed partially on the bed. "What do you mean?"

The girl's eyes held on to Sean's for a long seconds. "How could you say that?"

"What?" he asked, then looking defensively at his friends, he shrugged his shoulders.

"That's very mean of you."

"I don't get--"

"How could you say you don't know your own sister?"

Both Drake and Robin's eyes immediately sought out Sean, staring at him with wide eyes that narrowed into accusative gazes. Sean froze at what he heard - disbelief making him utterly speechless. It was too stupefying a moment to ruin with words. Sean backed away at the increasingly fierce glares of his fellow SUOs.

Then, his restraint broke when he saw the supposed-to-be-asleep Clark glaring at him as well from his bed, joining in the group mutiny heartily.

Sean sputtered. "Bullshit!"








-end of Chapter 4 -

God, when I started, I couldn't stop.

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Is it better, is it worse?

As dictated by Faranza Syns

I am - inadvertently - suffering from writer's block. Chapter 4 of Sean Hayes' story is most probably never going to come out unless I break this wall between me, my fingers, my brain and my muse.

A few days ago, I'd promised myself that I won't post any new posts until I'd finished the 4th chapter of Hayes' story. But thus far, I've only gotten till 'Sean groaned in muffled agony as his muscles--'

Yup, practically nowhere.

But it does whet the appetite, does it not? Giving you just a sentence - I could get used to this. Alas, I must continue writing now. Suddenly, after speaking of this writer's block I am suffering, the walls feel rather shaky. I think I see my muse through the cracks on the walls. He's shouting, "My love, stop dallying! Hurry - help me with this stupid wall!"

And who am I to refuse what my lover wants of me?

Wall, begone. I have had enough of you.



Promise: I will get that chapter done tonight even if hell freezes over. (Just a figure of speech.)

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March 20, 2010

Through painted windows, I smile.

As dictated by Faranza Syns

Lately, I've been taking pictures of a most interesting subject. A subject so diverting, so riveting, it leaves me staring in awe most of the time.

I take pictures of me.

Well, mostly it's me staring out the window of my (dad's) car.




Talk about being full of oneself.


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I know it's definitely not wrong to say that many SBU-ians have held on with bated breath to see the completion of this place.







Ring any bells? Duh, of course.

Remember when we used to plan: let's meet up after school and go to 1Shamelin one day after school!

Except the place did not show signs of being complete by the time we'd graduate. So, ever the hopeful, some of us who live nearby continue to plan: let's walk to the mall one day and spend one whole day window shopping! It'll be great fun!

Silly us.









This doesn't look all too complete to me.

Scratch the plan, kids. You're not gonna be hanging out at a mall anytime soon.

What was the expected date of completion? From January 2008, to August 2009, to God-Knows-When. Seriously, it's aggravating to wait for the day when the mall would finally be fully-constructed. It's starting to feel like Mission Dammit-It'll-Never-Be-Possible.

I need to go read a book.



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Two red cars parked together. An oddity. I love my dad for choosing red. We're so special.

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March 19, 2010

You're so cheesy, you make me smile as I wake up.

As dictated by Faranza Syns






Today, I did the one thing I never thought I would do. Okay, I'll cut the melodramatics - I knew I was going to do it, but it didn't feel real enough until I actually went to the place, sat in the chair and signed the receipt.

Hell, I'm taking driving lessons. Have I ever mentioned how paranoid I get when I'm behind the wheel - okay, when I'm imagining myself behind the wheel? What if I'd stopped too soon? What if I'd stopped too long? What if I'd taken the corner too soon? What if I day-dreamed and forgot where I was headed - lost? What if the friggin brake won't work? What if someone put a bomb beneath - okay, I think you get the gist of this, right?

I mean, how would you know when to do what you're supposed to do?

Okay, I suppose I should have a "deep breath" moment.


Shane: That's odd. You're never paranoid.


Correction: I've always been paranoid. It's just that Kimberly Hong's gargantuan paranoia overshadows my small squeak of worry. It swallows mine up (not to mention that she's very vocal about her fears - vocal and loud) and makes it seem like whatever I was about to worry over never existed after all.

But yes, I am paranoid at times. Ask Amanda. The things I worry about are so laughable, it's annoying.

So, it's understandable that I have a fear of being responsible of a metal-made machine of huge proportions (granted, it's just a Kancil, but people have died in Kancils, okay?) with the power to squish a cat into goo. I don't even want to hold a wheel, for God's sake, if it means someone will die from it.

But then again, I'll be going to classes. And the teacher (Abang Man?) is an alumnus of UIA, a place I'm planning to go to. Abang Zul (the other teacher) is also an alumnus. A blessing in disguise? So far, I've only spoken to Abang Zul, and he's pretty sweet and sporting, more than willing to share and talk of his time at UIA, telling me about how horrid orientation is (dead tired, he said, and then they'd start testing your Arab, which I suck at, by the way) and how he used to be in the same room as a Russian and an African. It was fun in a way.

A blessing in disguise? Maybe it's too soon to tell. But I'll put the paranoia to rest - it's tiring to keep up.



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Aja's driving herself up the wall with boredom. Someone save her, please.

Kidding.





It's only for someone special.

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March 18, 2010

Eventual Paradoxical Embolism.

As dictated by Faranza Syns

It serves me right (or in classic - if not very offensive - Malay: memang padan muka aku) that applications for the JPA PILN Scholarships have closed. ON MY BIRTHDAY. AND I HAD NO IDEA.

This is what's going on in my head:



"Haaa... tu la. Be a lazy ass and procrastinate everything. Padan muka."

"Oh, dad's gonna beat my ass blue all through Monday."


"No more scholarships? Oh what the friggin hell am I gonna do?"


"FCUK."




But hey, let's not be dramatic about this, huh? It's only the matter of our future, right?

Hell, no. So there I was, screwing myself senseless (you blue-heads had better not snicker at that), convincing myself quite convincingly that I "sucked" (again, please do not snicker), when Wei Jie butt in to save the day.

Thank you, dear, for reminding me to keep a level head and giving me a hand on those scholarships. You rock!

But as I chatted with him, I came to realise something.


Me: I might have to depend on IPTAs

CWJ: IPTA?

Me: Local U.

CWJ: Hmm. Where is it located?



I had a "..." moment right then until it came to me that he thought IPTA is a local university. IPTA (for the benefit of people who also do not know the meaning) is Institusi Pengajian Tinggi Awam. As I explained this to Wei Jie, I thought of all SBU students - present and past - and had a =_='' moment when I imagine most of them not knowing what IPTA means. Possibly because as the years progress, many of us turn to IPTS, not giving even an ounce of attention to Pn. Song's adroit announcements on IPTA Edu Fairs.

"IPTA? Whazat?"

Granted, some people just forget the meaning, hence they can be forgiven. But the others really don't know - and it's amusing to think of it.

The memory of IPTA is currently battling its ass off to stay alive in the hearts of SBU students.

We really don't care that much about IPTA, it seems. Until after the dreaded slip comes out.



Him: So what'd you get?

Her: 8A, 2B.

Him: Ah, doomed. I guess it's Matriculation for us.

Her: I guess.

Him: Ah, damn, IPTA, here we come.

Her: Is that a university? Where is it? Near HELP?

Him: ...



UIAM, here I come.

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March 16, 2010

When I look to my sides.

As dictated by Faranza Syns

I think I said 'no' in the most delicate, considerate terms.

I think he's rejecting the 'no' in the most mule-headed terms.

Or maybe he's really taking my suggestion to "be friends" into serious account.


Him: Kita message malam ni eh?


Seriously.

After saying no, I think I felt happy for a while. Until that phone call. Sigh.

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Because I'm too wimpy to say no.

As dictated by Faranza Syns

I never ever, ever, ever, ever, ever [I think you get the drift] expected this to happen.

In fact, I deduced that it would only happen after the shedding of 20 more pounds and the gaining of tonnes of personality. But indeed, I was mistaken.

Someone has popped the question.

For someone who has never ever generated much male interest, this is a big friggin' deal, okay?

Granted, the way he asked was ... very unromantic. On Facebook, goddamnit.




Him: So... sekarang boleh ke?

Me: Hmm? Nak message sekarang?

Him: Tak, tak. Nak couple sekarang boleh ke?

Me:... [I took ten minutes to reply this question] I fikir dulu boleh tak?

Him: Ok. Tapi jangan lama-lama sangat tau.



What the feck.

We (supposedly) "met" at NS. It was a short, sweet, and highly uneventful meeting.


Him: Hi [smiles]

Me: [stares at him, turns and walks away]




It was during our last day there - we were gonna leave the next day. That night, we were going to have Malam Citra Puisi where the companies compete by staging the best performance based on Malaysian literature. So, during the evening, we were doing full-dress rehearsals. After my company (Bravo/ Rentap) had finished our rehearsals, I went off-stage to sign some shirts at a table. Near the table was a sofa, and he was sitting there. He turned to say hi. I stared at him, eyebrows raised, then I looked away, putting him out of my mind.

Really, I am a cold, cruel, heartless woman. I know that. No need to flatter me.

But anyways, all that aside, I think I already have my answer.

Wish me luck.




How can I not love you guys?

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March 15, 2010

Come-back is too strong a word.

As dictated by Faranza Syns

Tadaaa!

I am now officially ending my self-imposed hiatus.



-The end of another I'll-never-follow-through declarations-



My new phone:




Nokia 7230 Graphite



I love my dad despite the fact that I had to pay for the phone myself. It's really fun shopping with him, actually. Me and Ma like making fun with him.

If nothing else, I think NS made me realise how much I love my parents - flaws and all.

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March 14, 2010

Mackerel Skies

As dictated by Faranza Syns


I ... actually


... really can't believe it.

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March 11, 2010

Cutting through the clouds.

As dictated by Faranza Syns

And I am back from NS.

Boo yah!


NS, you rock my socks off.

KBBR 4ever, baby.

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